I honestly don’t ask for much. A little excitement goes a long way.

How long must this be one sided?

I’m not so sure I can wait much longer.

i don’t think its too much to ask that you have fun with me from time to time. 

There are very few people in my world that I’ve been completely vulnerable with. It is when I’m around those people that I feel like I’m home. My heart aches when I don’t see them in awhile or when something happens to them. I’m not sure why I’m not like that with everyone.

welp, i am attempting to die my hair purple. lets see what happens. 

I have been fighting apathy. I feel like I’m not making any progress and I want to give up. Today is the first day in a while I woke up and wanted to face the day. Sunday during a worship we sang “in all I do, I’ll honor you” and I honestly had a hard time singing that. I don’t feel right now that my actions and motivations are centered around god. I’m definitely not giving my all. I feel I could be doing so much more. You know, I prayed that night during communion and asked God to restore my fire and now I don’t think it was ever gone it just wasn’t being used or kept up properly. I forget sometimes that it takes responsibility to follow God; responsibility to seek him out, learn his truth, choose him everyday. It’s not Gods fault I’m in a rut, it’s my own laziness.
Lord, I’m sorry. Please continue to keep my heart close to yours. Watch over it carefully. Thank you Lord for all you do, for reminding me constantly who you are and why I’m here. I don’t deserve this constant love but that’s the beauty of it and that’s something I’ll keep learning. Bless this day and let me see you in all I do.
I love you,
Amen